Last night I posted the phrase “goodnight” as I final post before i went bed because, well I’ve hurt somebody very close to me because I fear letting people get close. My defense mechanism kicked in in a big way and to combat the fear of being hurt or rejected, I took charge in the stupidest most infantile manner and was rude and mean to the most important person that’s ever been a part of my life. This naturally sobered me up pretty damn quick, and I realised very fast the damage that i’d done, but it was too late. By the time night came I was feeling more alone than I’ve ever felt in my life, and it made me miss more than ever the only things I miss while being single, cuddles and somebody to say “goodnight” back.
Somebody said “goodnight” back to me. Although I still feel awful (and I will forever unless can get my friend back) this helps me slightly ^_^